Chapter Twenty-eight A Raging Torrent

A RAGING TORRENT
(OR IS THAT REDUNDANT?)

I am the banks of the mighty Mississippi (I loved learning to spell that name in school) this morning; the widest stretches of the Nile and the Amazon. I feel the energy of all places and all times rushing through my physical body and it feels amazing and takes me to a place of such gratitude tears are overflowing my eyelashes, attached somehow, directly to my heart. The picture of my life is completely uncertain; where will I live, how will I live, what will I “do”; will I ever truly have a loving partnership, without fear, with another human being. And while those are real questions, currently without answers, I KNOW that none of it actually matters. The only TRUE thing is this rushing, coursing, torrent of love, the essence of being, flowing through the immense river of me right this very moment.

Since Monday of this week I have been presented with more opportunities to be fearful and overwhelmed than I have in years. It has been a great opportunity to use what I have learned to keep myself present, grounded and receptive to the lessons. Yesterday when I felt utterly overwhelmed I actually asked for help. Yes, Delilah, I have been asking for help and I am so grateful for and appreciative of all the help that has been forthcoming; gladly forthcoming.

I don’t yet consciously understand why it is important to acknowledge the mighty river or the gratitude right this minute but I trust that this information will touch someone, somewhere, somehow. I do know that if this is my experience today it will not be solely my experience and it is important to allow the river to rage and run its course through your deep channels; to not dam it up or slow it down; to stretch your boundaries to allow it to flow fully and freely and to allow yourself the joy that comes from gratitude for the life within you and all around you.

From my raging river to yours...

To be continued...