DEAR JOHNATHAN
Flying away from you today was one of the hardest things I will ever do. Fortunately the driver was a respectful man and just let me cry in silence. What is hard is how incredibly much I am going to miss you; how much I already miss you. What made it easier was how much faith I have in you and your abilities and how ready I know you are for this adventure. I realized today that this week in Hong Kong was difficult for me because I had my heart steeled against these feelings and when I am not in my heart these days I feel really disconnected from myself.
Because it may not have been obvious let me tell you what a joy it was to help you shop for things for your dorm room; to share in your life one more time. And now I will have a vision of you in your room, new linens on your bed, Chairman Mao on the wall. I have not been brave enough to go into your room in the house yet. I’ll get around to it sometime this week.
I am so incredibly proud of you and of the man you are becoming. Being your mother has been the highlight of my life. I have never done anything more challenging or more rewarding. I have loved you with my whole heart since the moment you were conceived; far earlier than I loved myself with my whole heart. It’s such a funny feeling, so happy/sad, so much love.
What I wish for you as you venture out on your own is that you find within and for yourself a love and an appreciation that will serve as a beacon, that will connect you with your heart and your integrity and your truest place of creation; that will allow you to know what is truly important to you regardless of whether or how it may be judged by others.
So thank you, sweetie, from the bottom of my heart, for the pleasure and the challenge of being your mother. I look forward to all the times to come. I wish you love. I wish you contentment. I wish you fun. I wish you excitement. I wish you the joy of learning. I wish you true friendship. I wish you the pleasure of knowing what I already know about you; that when you put your heart and mind into something there is nothing you cannot accomplish!
All my love,
Mom aka Leslie
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